If you tell me that you’ve read my Kids VT articles and I seem embarrassed, it’s because I am.
It’s easy for me to sit at my laptop and let my feelings pour through my fingers and onto the screen. It’s not so easy for me to look someone in the eye and have them tell me they like my writing. It's not because I’m not good at accepting compliments. It’s the sudden realization that people are reading my deepest thoughts. When you read my words, you are looking into my heart.
I’m happy to share my heart with all of you. There is something cathartic about it for me. If I’m having a bad day or going through a rough patch, if I’m struggling with thoughts and feelings that I can’t explain, I write about it — and then I feel better. Everything becomes clear. It might not be fixed. It might not even get better. But it’s clear. It’s there written on the screen in front of me and in the depths of my heart.
Thank you to everyone who has reached out with kind words about my writing, and encouraging words about my husband's deployment. I may be embarrassed, but I’m equally grateful.
Tasha Lehman is a mother of three boys living in Vermont. Her husband, Matt, is a first lieutenant in the Vermont Air National Guard who recently headed overseas for his first deployment. The “Home Front: Diaries of a Vermont military family” series chronicles their journey. Read more about their story in February’s “Use Your Words” essay.
This article was originally published in Seven Days' monthly parenting magazine, Kids VT.